Monthly Archives: May 2012

Back At Scharmützelsee: Germany (Photos)

Lake View by Red Haircrow

Lake View by Red Haircrow

As much as I love Scharmützelsee, the lake I’ve written about numerous times here (for example, Night On the Lake), I was somewhat ambivalent about going this trip. Only a relatively short ride: by bus, then S-bahn (local) train, a change to an inter-regional train and then to yet another bus…well, it’s a relatively short ride of almost two hours but it does take some effort believe me, but serious walking, waiting and then more walking are a daily part of life in Germany for many people. It’s also why you’ll find far more simply average people in quite good shape. My ambivalence, however, was not based on the journey itself, but that this time I was going alone, without my son, my usual accompaniment. So honestly, I felt a distinct sense of loneliness, which is rare for me.

The weather was almost perfect: warm, almost 30°C (86°F) with that special somewhat still cool breeze that keeps the air brisk and fresh. It was almost perfect just because it’s quite dry, and the schneebaum has bloomed with its unique products that resemble puffs of cotton floating through the air. For someone with allergies: sneezing and watering eyes are a problem. Schneebaum literally means “snow tree” in German, and sometimes, if you have an area with many of them, when their “snow” flies and settles, it looks like snow drifts along the curbs, grass and sidewalks.

Branches by Red Haircrow

Branches by Red Haircrow

The sky was bright, crisp blue, cloudless, and on the last part of the trip, the last bus, it finally made that turn I know so well onto Karl Marx Damm where you can see Scharmützelsee (“see” means “lake” in German) when you glance to your right. The sun’s light on the water made the diamonds and shifting triangles so often described in writing. A few stops more and my friend’s home, a large structure built in the late 1800’s came into view. It’s a seminar house now, with rooms for sleeping, meditation, living, and more. There’s no telling who shall be there. Reiki groups meet regularly, Qigong masters, yoga classes, and special visitors at times: Maori healers, Tibetan monks, or New Age Christians who incorporate a little of everything into their beliefs. My friend welcomes them all, and when I lived there, I also participated and helped, and sometimes spoke about my own people’s history, traditions and life.

Cecilien Park by Red Haircrow

Cecilien Park by Red Haircrow

I have to pass her home and get off at the nearest stop, and it’s only a walk of three or four minutes back to it. I open the wooden gate, opening point of a fence made out of stacked and interlaced driftwood, unusual for the street as most of the houses are as large at her home but “high class”: nuevo with stylish cast iron fences and electronic devices. My friend’s home is seriously “green,” basic and very conscious of conservation of all kinds. She is sitting with her son, whom I know well, see entry “The Goose God Cometh Forth” as an example.

They are sitting on simple stools made from the sliced rings of a great tree that had been downed last year, as it was threatening the house with its deep lean. It’s like I’ve never been away. There is no fuss or strong greeting, I just ease back in and the bottle of water they are sharing is passed to me and I drink. They continue their conversation.

Lakeside Home by Red Haircrow

Lakeside Home by Red Haircrow

Completely relaxed at my home away from home, nothing pressing to do, no computer connection, sports or news broadcasts, it was great, especially in that I wasn’t feeling particularly well again. Maybe it’s the changes in the cosmos, the “ring of fire”, all such things which can affects humans also, but since my stroke in April, I can tell when my head isn’t right. The more accurate way to describe it even if it’s vague: there is a mild headache always which might spike suddenly, a sense of slowness in thought: languid. That aspect isn’t bad if you don’t have anything that needs detailed attention.

My friend has garden work to do and her son is working on his old Volkswagen mini-bus in preparation for a “walk-about” he plans to do in Norway. He’s leaving tomorrow, driving up to Denmark then taking a ferry over…then will just choose a direction and drive. It’s the season for it, when many young people go hitchhiking, wandering, in search of adventure, fun, an exchange of culture and good times. I decide to go for a walk down to our favorite little beach area where we often hang out, my son and I, though my friend has a little pier and dock where her boat is moored where one can also sit and fish or whatever you wish to do. This is the same little beach I photographed in winter when the lake was frozen over. You can see those photos here and here.

Water Son by Red Haircrow

Water Son by Red Haircrow

A short walk through the forest bordering the lake, dappled sunlight, the rushing ocean sound of the wind through the leaves and then I emerge. Again I feel a pang of loneliness. My son loved to clamber over the angled trunks here and wade in the water (this photo is from 2011). It feels more empty without him. I make a few photos, but the light at this hour of the day and the dryness of the air produce results not my favorite. Please see photos from last year, near this time, when the moisture content in the air made for brighter colors and “softer” results.

Gentle Bench by Red Haircrow

Gentle Bench by Red Haircrow

I head back to the house, back through the forest and its many dancing insects whirling in the quiet. My friend has made lunch: brown rice, tofu Bolognese sauce with sweet cream, majoram and cashews and we eat together with her son. She asks me to stay the night, though it’s her grand-daughter’s usual overnight stay and she’ll be occupied, but we’ll have more time for conversation tomorrow.

Since I’m staying and brought no provisions (and don’t want anymore of her creative meals) I walk to the market, which is the nearest available: about fifteen minutes each way: a Netto. I walk around for almost an hour because I don’t know what I want but finally settle on a small piece of lean beef to make a light soup with spring onions and wild rice. When I return the granddaughter has arrived, five years old, bright eyed, no longer shy of me, they are sitting in the backyard having a dinner of bread, wasa, butter, honey and cheese. Since the evening has softened along with the sky, and apricot arches above us, I decided to make more photos near the water while my dinner cooks. I bid them good night and go for another walk. I want to see the highpoint above the lake where I made great photos in winter, but it’s too far for me to go alone when I am feeling vaguely unwell.

Evening Lake by Red Haircrow

Evening Lake by Red Haircrow

Sunset by Red Haircrow

Sunset by Red Haircrow

Rhododendrons by Red Haircrow

Rhododendrons by Red Haircrow

There’s a note on the table that my bed is ready. I head upstairs to the room where my son usually slept, the same bed, and undress and lie down. I count the spiders on the ceiling: nine in total (more about spiders here), so that when I wake up in the morning I can hope to find the same nine still there and not consumed by me somehow. In the room next to the top most level, there are so curtains and only the unrelenting light whenever it comes again: the sky is light until around eleven p.m. then brightens again at five. I awaken and lay for almost three hours, meditating and thinking of many things before I finally arise. I’d heard her leave to take her granddaughter to kindergarten.

Summer Table by Red Haircrow

Summer Table by Red Haircrow

Maybe it’s one of the reasons we’ve gotten along so well for so many years, but even though I am visiting and we hadn’t seen each other for months: life and the daily needs of the house and garden go on. My friend doesn’t feel obliged to entertainment me, nor do I need entertainment. We are simply happy to be near each other. She returns while I am washing the dishes in the downstairs kitchen, cleaning up from the day before. We exchange a wave and smile as she returns. She heads to garden watering, for despite being so close to the lake, only some metres away, the soil here is extremely dry and sandy. If one has any plants not indigenous to the area and/or adapted, heavy watering at morning and evening is necessary to keep them alive.

She doesn’t need my help at the moment so I take the time to have coffee and bread for breakfast, rereading one of my few print books, “Intruder” by C.J. Cherryh. One of my favorite authors, my review of it is at the link.

When she comes inside she has something of an adventure for us: today is the big sale at Hof Marienhöfe, which is an all-organic farm offering produce, meats and plants for “green” people. I’ve visited before and written about it: A Trip Into the Past. The large farm itself is staffed by guest workers: if there is space and you will abide by the few rules, you can live in their barracks and work for your food and shelter. There are few electronics or  modern amenities, but lots of smiles and companionship. Both families and individuals live there. When they have big harvests, any and everyone is welcome to come and help and they’ll be fed for the day. The next upcoming is June 2&3 when they harvest carrots. My friend is buying goods for her son’s upcoming trip: cheese, sausages, bread and other things, and has promised she won’t buy any more plants because she has too many but I know better than that, and secretly she does also.

Hof Marienhöfe by Red Haircrow

Hof Marienhöfe by Red Haircrow

The adventure wasn’t the farm itself, but the means in getting there. Usually we ride bicycles, and I’m glad we didn’t because it is 14km or over 8 miles each way. Instead, we are taking her son’s ancientVW mini-bus. And she’s driving. Let’s just say, she gets distracted very easily looking at this or that bird, tree or flower and will wax rapturous and not pay attention to the road, signals and other vehicles….We barely miss a number of high curbs and fences, but we make it. She doesn’t even head for the store first, which is what she has promised but instead strays to the plants. Yes, I am soon back and forth loading the van: four fruit trees, 13 bedding plants, 4 pots of herbs and a special gift for a friend.

Next she gets carried away buying fresh made desserts for afternoon tea: a dozen slices of ananas (pineapple) cheese cake, plus fresh lemon cake, and slices of sweet bread made with rose geranium. The van is large, but we are loaded down on the homeward journey. Just like any other time we’ve visited, though we were on bikes then, on the way down the long hill she takes her foot off the brakes and starts singing. Naja, if we crash we crash but she brings the vehicle under control at the last minute before a big turn that will take us back to the main road. She is laughing like a child. I love it. I never doubted her.

The Garage by Red Haircrow

The Garage by Red Haircrow

When we get back home, and I’ve unloaded the goods, including milk, quark and cream in the separate garage. This garage, incidentally is completely liveable in its own way, as it has plenty of room inside, a loft, and also a cellar beneath the flooring. Like many houses in this area of Germany, one of former residents of the house, the niece of the Jewish family who lived there, had hidden beneath that floor of the garage for many long months. She later escaped to England and survived, tragically the rest of the family was murdered in Auschwitz. Their  memorial plaque is set in the stones of the front walkway.

The garage is used now for storage but also because it is the coolest place to store relatively perishable things. There is no air-conditioning here and she doesn’t use energy for the small refrigerators she has unless a guest to the house needs it. She buys in season, only enough to eat for a few days at best, never to spoil any flavor by natural flavor by chilling it or cooking it too long. I finish the last load and hear her exclaim about something out in the yard. Several of the plants in the front have been flattened. She can’t imagine what has happened.

“It looks as if a bear sat on them!” she says, quite annoyed.

Lake View: House by Red Haircrow

Lake View: House by Red Haircrow

I look towards the parked van, but say nothing. I commiserate with her about the state of the wilted pansies.

“Oh wait, I must have done it,” she realizes sheepishly, smiling.

I agree with her.

Her son, daughter and grand kids will be arriving in a couple of hours and she suggests we go for a walk, as there is a place she wants to show me. I am agreeable to anything and have no schedule. This time we head cross-country instead of along the lake. This whole region, including the lake was created by spreading and then receding glaciers. There isn’t much high ground, but rather very slight hills in between the many smaller lakes and tributaries. One of the most notable and portable evidence you can find are the many water and ice smoothed stones that cover the countryside. My pockets were filled with so many, I was “clacka-lacking” with each step on the way back.

We head pass a group of houses, along a dusty road and up into a forested area. She tells me about the whooping cranes that live in a bog nearby, and about how she comes to this area at a certain point to see and watch the sun go down. She points out a spot where she’d pulled together some branches and logs to make a place to rest. It has a little altar in the center where she offers up whatever she might have. She exclaims at the holunder bushes having already bloomed and she gathers their showy heads to make syrup, tea and to flavor salads or soup. Next she heads to a wheat field nearby where many cornflowers can be seen amid the other stalks. She gathers as many as she can hold to make bouquets to decorate her house. Like the most interesting and unusual stones I’ve been gathering on our walk, the farmers don’t mind in the least, as it helps them out in the long run.

Village House by Red Haircrow

Village House by Red Haircrow

But it’s nearing time for the grandkids to arrive and we’re getting hungry, so we start back. Along the way we pick acacia blossoms from the many trees lining the next narrow path we are newly on. Their sweet, moist crunch is welcome in the dry air and warm temperature. It takes me back to horseback rides and hikes back in the U.S. when we’d sample most anything edible along the way, a little extra vitamin C, here and there. Back to the house soon and very glad of it, and within minutes the girls are running towards my friend, crying, “Oma! Oma! (Grandma)” and are hanging on by fistfuls of her overalls.

One already has a bloody toe from also stepping on a pine cone like I did yesterday afternoon and had been limping on since. My friend does minor surgery on us both, with mine taking longer as she gets a very sharp knife, cleans it and then determinedly slices open my sole and picks the cone petal out then pours over a generous measure of alcohol then covers and tapes it up. Afterwards, she takes a little time to do a little planting, while I set the table for tea and bring out the dessert and beverages. All in a day’s work at the lakeside.

To see it in winter, please see photo journals: The Last of the Ice: Scharmützelsee Winter 2012 Photos and Frozen Scharmützelsee Winter 2012 Photos.

Afternoon Tea by Red Haircrow

Afternoon Tea by Red Haircrow

Tea With the Girls by Red Haircrow

Tea With the Girls by Red Haircrow

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My Messages For Hop Against Homophobia

Since I’d already written an article, “The Inter & Trangender Question in GLBT Communities” which I felt was relevant for discussions of homophobia and transphobia, I included my giveaway in it’s introduction. My angle is from a “blow-by-blow” not having to just battle homophobes but from also within the GLBTIIQ community, those who say they represent but do not obviously understand the range of what that means and who it may encompass outside of their “sphere” and favorites and choose to try to hurt and vilify gays who don’t fit into their ideas of how gays should be or what they should do or believe.

Anyone who posts a relevant comment to the article is offered a free copy of my latest release, a biography of a young, gay deaf Russian, “Silence In Multi-Colored In My World,” if they should wish it, but it is certainly not mandatory. My point in joining the Hop Against Homophobia is to highlight how bias and discrimination exists inside the GLBTIIQ communities and groups also. It is even more terrible when those like I have to fight the outside, and then those people who say they support GLBTIIQ writers and their works, without taking the time to even research and understand different viewpoints or perspectives.

Another article of interest which addresses a far more subtle but, what I believe to be more actively widespread, is that of homo-ignorance: “Home-Ignorance: Are You Part of the Problem?” This is the idea that misinformation, assumptions and stereotypes that are held and spread, even by those who feel themselves open-minded and supportive of GLBTIIQ communities in general, but need to also extend that wider to include individuals. No one should have to endure mislabels, discrimination or bias even from within “their own” communities by those who haven’t yet understood we are all unique.

Of GLBTIIQ interest at my blog, or specifically on Two Spirits:

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“You’re All the Same!” American Indians From A European Perspective (Photos)

"Stereo" Statue by Red Haircrow

“Stereo” Statue by Red Haircrow

American Indians have long been romanticized or vilified in Europe and other places, even North America for that matter. Many wrong ideas, stereotypes and long-held assumptions continue to persist even in this day and age, and generalizations and flat out ignorance exist about indigenous peoples from the blatant level to the subtle.

Much of it is based on films, television shows or books non-natives may have read that were written by non-natives, especially those who were not as knowledgeable or as objective as they claimed.

Some authors presented their ideas or viewpoints, whether they had conflicting original knowledge or not, in an attempt to create a greater “stir” or anticipation for their work, whether it was accurate or not. And in my opinion, whether its fiction or non-fiction, there is a responsibility any author or writer must bear when they misrepresent a people, culture or anything else. Of course, that is debatable. I believe in creative license, but I also very much believe in responsibility for whatever you write or support.

There are popular camps and groups here in Germany where children and families go to “pretend” to be Indians. They live in mock tepees and get little bows and arrows, and costumes (in the exact sense of the work) and spend a weekend or some days: being “Indians!” And they don’t want to be corrected for the wrongness. It’s their right, of course, to (re)enact whatever they wish. But for many, though they may acknowledge some things may not be accurate, they say it’s all in good fun. Yet, the crucial point is, no matter what they say, when confronted with a situation or a real American Indian, they quote some of their so-called knowledge from such things as if it is fact. Not fun at all.

Or you have the film series of the “Native American” looking fellow who did random heroic deeds, romanced women and basically looked “stone-faced” the whole time that people think of as representing American Indians. Reference Gojko Mitić, the Serbian actor who played in those films. I saw a stack of them in an Aldi’s (discount market) one day.  Went through the cover images and titles, and had to stop my burst of laughter. Not that they were bad, because I haven’t seen them, but just because it struck me as funny, and some people here think that’s how “real” Indians are and look. My article, “What’s a ‘Real’ Indian?”

Modern Native American Art by Red Haircrow

Modern Native American Art by Red Haircrow

Conversely, I’ve read of, seen images then had direct testimony from those who have “taken up” the American Indian way of life. You can find photos of groups of Russians, for example, who have studied Indians and then prepared tepees, and others goods and lead a nomadic life in their country. Yes, if you’re native, you might already see the inherent problems: not all American Indians lived in tepees. There were/are hundreds of tribes of American Indians or Native Americans, whichever you choose use, who had their own languages, customs, traditions, history, etc. even if we may have all come from a common ancestral group. If you want to be technical or ascribe to that belief, all humankind came from one common ancestor.

The point of my post, or rather what caused the thought process was that a few weeks ago I visited an Ethnological Museum here in Berlin, with a friend of mine, because they had a new exhibit of modern Native American art. I was interested anyway, but also wanted to see how many actual native created works were in the exhibit or was it interpretative work from non-natives. I was pleased to see ALL the works were from native artists.I thoroughly enjoyed viewing them.

Artwork by Red Haircrow

Artwork by Red Haircrow

The majority were from Hopi artists, the vast majority. Next were from tribes of the Pacific northwest, but unfortunately only a few examples from Plains Indians, others of the southwest and southeast. I would sincerely like to see more from those tribes in the musuem. The exhibit runs until October 2012, so if you know or are a Native artist would be interested in having your work displayed, why not contact the musuem?

So, the museum had a “regular” area where a large amount of American Indian artifacts, handwork, weapons, clothing, etc. were on display all year round. There were many signs with information about various tribes, their history and bits and pieces of knowledge “did you know?” type questions around, some of which I did take exception to because the information was not strictly correct. It had clearly been interpreted from an outsider’s view, without apparently asking an Indian the significance of this or that dance or ceremony. Still, I found it alright overall, and was beginning to feel a more pronounced homesickness as I saw beadwork, moccasins and decorations that reminded me of the many evenings or days I’d spent with my People working at craft, telling stories and just hanging out. But fortunately (or unfortunately, depending on how you look at it) I came across a display that stopped me cold, and then my temper heated up.

Introduced by a large sign stating, “American Indians and Alcoholism,” the information launched into close to being mock historical examples of the dangers of “fire water” and how it devastated the Indians, and continues to be a problem. The biggest problem American Indians face today, in fact (it said). What’s wrong with that statement?

The biggest problem American Indians face today is losing their culture, their language, their sense of identity in a world that continues to grow more apathetic to the beauty and ancient wisdom indigenous peoples are still a part of!

Alcoholism is a problem, no doubting that, but it is a symptom of a far larger cultural illness. It is an illness that can be cured, but it is complex.The museum staff chose to represent this “problem” of natives in a glass display with a crushed Budweiser can and a flask of whisky next to examples of beadwork.Who thought that was clever?

NA Display by Red Haircrow

NA Display by Red Haircrow

I felt it to be in dreadfully poor taste, close to being offensive. I stopped short of it being fully offensive because I do not believe it was intentionally meant to be demeaning, although I felt it was. I felt there should be a different way of demonstrating a point, and I actually wrote the museum to express my thoughts and respectfully request they reconsider their display. Of course, I did not and do not expect to ever hear anything back from them regarding it, but I felt it incumbent upon me to object. You can write them also here: md@smb.spk-berlin.de regarding “The Exhibits and Information on Native American Indians of North America.” Their website is www.smb.museum.

There comes a point when one is tired of being treated as a stereotype, even if we may laugh and joke about it among ourselves or those who know us. One of the best websites I’ve seen with native jokes and example of such stereotypes is here: a collection of Native American Indian jokes. The first time I read some of them, I absolutely rolled, because they were so true. Some of the attitudes and examples of ignorance or “un”-knowledge regarding Indians I’d heard from people in the U.S. but even more so here in Europe. Like when someone asks me where I bought my choker from, or my flute or clothing, and I tell them either I made them, a relative did so or they were passed down through my family…and they look at me in surprise. Or they ask me if I am Mexican or from a country in South America, and I say I’m American Indian…and they say: “Oh, it’s all the same thing.” When I ask them if being German is the same thing as being Swedish or Russian or French, they vehemently object.

Indian Girl by Red Haircrow

Indian Girl by Red Haircrow

“But you’re part of the same continent, aren’t you? You might be confused to be from another country if one doesn’t know you personally or your language, correct?” They, of course, must agree. “But you are not Swedish or Russian or French, so why should you accept someone telling you, ‘Oh it’s all the same thing’?” Some look discomfited then, but the purpose of my questions is not to make them look stupid, but rather to make them really think about what they just said: the huge cultural generalization they made. I tell them, I don’t accept it anymore than they wish to be called Russian, and lose their own distinct culture and history.

Okay, Mexicans are a people who have distinct regions and traditions also, and they are a mix of Spanish and indigenous peoples, and yes, the Apache especially compared to other tribes, since their roaming grounds included what is now northern Mexico…have cousins over there, too. But we are still distinct.

Sarcophagus by Red Haircrow

Sarcophagus by Red Haircrow

I was discussing culture identity on an ex-pat private web group, and one member who was Swedish put forth that they felt it was divisive to state that one is of a certain culture. He felt it was basically stating that you were better than other people. But what his attitude and close-minded reasoning didn’t take into account was the other side of the equation.

First of all, why should he feel threatened because someone says, “I am American Indian” (for example)? He had stated he was Swedish. That is a people and culture, isn’t it? Yet then he commenced to bash other cultural references specifically indigneous  peoples because it apparently made him feel like his own culture wasn’t as important.

My culture is a part of me. It is my heart and soul. It is how I feel and think. It cannot be better than someone else’s culture simply because it is different, and I believe it is absurd to try to say there shouldn’t be any differences because that’s impossible. We, as humans, will never be all exactly the same size, weight, height, color, blood type or any other such thing. So why are differences a bad thing? They do not have to divide, as long as there is discussion and understanding, an adoption of mutual tolerance and respect. Honestly, sometimes I think people like this Swedish O.P. harbor resentment, for what reason I cannot ascertain and wouldn’t attempt to assume. Rather I would prefer to discuss, and provide Europeans and others with a more accurate perspective of what being an American Indian is, or rather, what it can be.

Quoting Sonny Skyhawk in his article on Indian Country, “What Are the Challenges of Walking in Two Worlds?” This summation is terrific.

“Collectively, we have paid a very dear price. Ours has been a culture that has relied on the oral transmission of our history and values. Our languages and have suffered tremendously, and therefore our cultures have suffered tremendously, and we find ourselves struggling to hold on to as much of both of them as possible. Obviously, we have lost almost all of our lands—what is less obvious is the lingering cost of the occupation and holocaust we have experienced remain to this very day. These haunt us in a more subtle, even subliminal, way.

Yet we have evolved and are dealing with the hand we have been dealt, so to speak. We are and remain a viable, vibrant and proud people, with the same dreams and aspirations as anyone else. Today, having retained our values and beliefs, we are doctors, lawyers and every other profession that is found in mainstream society, and we are moving ahead in many constructive ways.”

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