TO KISS YOU AT MIDNIGHT
In the old wooden box beneath my bed, rumpled bills,
scattered coins look almost enough to come to you
but alas, I know, they are too few.
I would give them all and more if only I could kiss you.
Playing all the sad songs from 1982,
re-recorded cassettes, precious, far from new,
I would burn them, crush them, hurl them into watery hell
if I could see your face to kiss you.
The single photo of the mother I barely knew,
sepia pale, curled and ragged edged:
wide brow, lips slim, like mine the eyes so blue,
but even this precious memory I would sacrifice to kiss you.”
And I say from “A” New Years Eve because people from different cultures and countries celebrate/recognize it at different times. The poem is from my first collected book of poetry titled, “CORE” (2014), available at Amazon, Smashwords and other online retailers. Post about its release here on-site.
The poem was written with the knowledge and from the perspective of the young deaf gay man whose biography I helped write and prepare for publishing. It is entitled, “Silence Is Multi-Colored In My World”, and an award in category, best GLBT memoir/biography in the 2012 Rainbow Awards.
“It made me laugh, broke my heart, and made me think of so many things. What a funny, bright, kind and loving young man! His pain makes me hurt, yet he had such an enormous capacity for love in spite of the cruelty and injustices he endured. I just want to hold him in my arms and not let go.” –Nancy Ferrer, Outlaw Reviews
“I read this book in a single sitting. It is an inspirational, often poignant, occasionally brutal, collection of essays about love, life, beauty, suffering, triumph, joy, pain and responsibility. I do not generally like collections of essays as a format preferring a straight line narrative. Had I read only the synopsis of this work without the author’s additional comments in requesting the review I would not have picked it up. Do not judge this book by its synopsis. Pick it up. Read it. Five stars.”- Bob Cherny, The LL Book Reviews
“As someone who has devoted their life to sound, and I suppose, at the same time silence, it is always very compelling for me to learn the perspective of someone who is deaf, and understands the vibration spectrum in a very different, but no less meaningful way….This book transcends all differences, stereotypes, judgements and becomes the sharing forth of a very honest human experience relevant to all of us, connected to all of us.“-Ana Cristina Caelen, Sound Therapist and Composer
“Silence Is Multi-Colored in My World is a beautiful and moving collection of essays, diary and blog entries written by a young deaf man. I read this collection with a sense of wonder, humility and inspiration and the writing deeply touched me on a multitude of levels. The honesty with which the writing conveys the joys and sorrows, fears and pains, hopes and dreams of this man serves as a testament and reminder of the capacity of the human spirit to not only persist but also to thrive and to soar.” –Indigene, Indie Reviews