2013 in One Word? Unbelievable!

Not unbelievable in the sense of the word many people might quickly assume, “incredible” in a positive way or simply “surprising”, but one of the literal meanings: ” so great or extreme as to be difficult to believe; extraordinary.”

My 2013 was extraordinary in the extremes of life and living that occurred, but perhaps not so unbelievable considering my past in general, which often has a brutal whimsicality and sometimes dangerous edge.

On the other hand, perhaps 2013 was perfectly ordinary, indicative and representative of how the journey of Red Haircrow continues. And we hope it continues, of course, though pain definitely reminds you that you’re still alive….

There are the professional highlights and accomplishments, the achievements:

  • Walking the red carpet with Johnny Depp for the Lone Ranger premiere in Berlin, Germany, as I covered the event for Indian Country Today Media Network (see photos & commentary at their website.)
  • I graduated from Columbia Southern University with a bachelor’s in Psychology, and after 4 years study declared I was totally done with school only to find myself applying for a graduate program with Montana State University a week later…
  • I regained enthusiasm for my indie publishing & multi-media company Flying With Red Haircrow, setting submission guidelines, revamping my logo and reopening its doors. Alternatively, Red Haircrow Review is on extended “vacation.”

“The word unbelievable describes something that is beyond understanding like the idea, until the Middle Ages, that the earth might actually be round.”–Vocabulary.com

For personal, dearly, painfully, and most prominently, was the fact that September 2013 marked two years that my son and I had been apart, which has been the single defining situation in my life. No words, no amount of them, can ever express how terrible this was for both of us, as it affects you on all levels ever second of the day.

You can have good times with others, and I did, and was privileged to meet a wide variety of people, a few of whom have come to be tremendous friends for whom I have great affection, but at the end of the day, you come home…and you are alone. A poem I wrote for my son in April, Spring Lament. On December 4, 2013, he returned to Berlin, and I feel I can finally breath again.

Those in literary circles, review groups, social media, forums or websites such as LibraryThing, Goodreads, etc. will have noticeably seen my absence, if they even noticed at all. For except for Twitter and Facebook, where I do my own promotions at times, as well as for a few clients, I stopped interacting elsewhere.

I had no interest or energy to expend towards the competitive posturing and pettiness that too often laces the writing world, the cliquès and so forth, and I found those who really wished to continue contact with me did so.

In combination with  the separation from my son, I had huge health challenges in 2013, having developed a hereditary blood disease that runs in my family, causing moderate damage to heart, lungs, liver and other organs, and needing specialized treatment for the rest of my life. It makes life tough, but hey, that’s life. Priorities straight: my boy, my friends and the People.

I go into 2014 not knowing what it will bring. No one does. I do have some appointments already scheduled, a couple of projects in the works, and definitely things I want to see happen, and which  must happen, but I’m okay enough. That should be my new catch phrase and quote. You ask me how I’m doing & that’s it: “I’m okay enough.”

I won’t stop writing, working and fighting. That’s what warriors do, and I come from a warrior people, where the word means something different to us than it does to other societies that associate it with warfare and aggression because that is what their history is full of: subjugating, conquering and brutalizing other cultures for their own gain.

To us, the originals of the Americas, the Native Americans, to be a warrior means to help those who need help, to do for others whatever needs to be done, to sacrifice themselves if necessary, to help the community and world as a whole. In 2014, I will continue to do so because that is what needs to be done.


“Christmas in July” Coming Soon: A Limited Omnibus Edition of Enigma 1&2 by Nephylim

Releasing on July 1st, 2013 and available only for one month, this limited omnibus edition will combine book one and two of the Enigma series: “Enigma” and “Fighting The Man” by Nephylim. Over 650 pages will include original artwork by the author and Maria K. as well as the bonus story, “Silver’s First Christmas.”

Leading up to the release, a number of other authors and blogs will host Nephylim, who will be providing more background about the characters and themes through interviews and excerpts, as well as having contests for giveaways. Promos start June 3rd!

The blog sites:

Cia’s Stories http://ciasstories.blogspot.com/
M.A. Church http://machurch00.blogspot.com/
Andy Gordon http://andrewqgordon.com/category/my-writing/
Talismania http://talismania-brilliantdisguise.blogspot.co.uk/
Chris T. Kat http://t.co/h6Kn4uYhRV

The books:

EnigmaXsmEnigma, Book 1 of Enigma:

“Can love ever be forbidden? Can the strongest of all human emotions be denied because someone tells you it cannot be? When Silver made his decision he very nearly paid with his life. Now River is faced with his choice believing that it is only his career at stake. However, when Silver’s past catches up with him River finds that there is more at stake than he could ever have imagined.”

enigma2MIDFighting the Man, Book 2 of Enigma:

“River had always known that living with a freed slave, even one as sweet as Silver, was never going to be easy. It gets a lot harder when his parents are killed leaving him to care for his young brother. When Social Services get involved he has a choice to make. Unfortunately, he makes the wrong one.”

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About The Author:


Born into a poor but loving mining family in the United Kingdom, Nephylim grew up in the beautiful and history rich South Wales Valleys, becoming the first in her family to attend university. As a lawyer practicing Family Law for several years, the profession allowed Nephylim to learn more about human nature at its worst and best moments, and develop empathy and a view of life not limited by social standing or background.

Tapping into the heritage of her people that throughout Earth’s ages welcomed the wandering bard into the hearts of their villages as keepers of lore, Nephylim trained as a Druid and brings the richness of her Celtic past and spiritual training to enrich and elevate her writing. Since a child Nephylim has been fascinated with other worlds, which exist within and alongside her own and has reveled in creating worlds and characters for others to enjoy.

Despite lack of family support, Nephylim continued writing privately and eventually found the Gay Authors website. With the positive response and a warm welcome received, she found the confidence to pursue her passion to a greater degree. Feeling gay fiction was a woefully neglected corner of the market where readers were all too often presented with what amounted to erotica, Nephylim strives to write quality gay fiction where sex and sexuality is not the central premise. Instead, concentration is given to character and narrative development through storytelling that goes beyond the physical.

Nephylim still resides in Wales, UK, and enjoys writing, reading, art, and taking part in medieval reenactments.

Author Links:





Author Interview & Book Spotlight: Red Haircrow at The “Books and Tales” Blog

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You can “read about me” on my site here, naturally, but as is your interest (or involving the various interviews about me that can be followed by link here or elsewhere) please take the time to visit Annette Gisby’s blog “Books and Tales” and read an interview and post about my latest release, “The Agony of Joy”  that was posted 10 April 2013.

The inclusion is greatly appreciated, especially in that they have a range of genres on their site that I was glad mine fit into. Please visit their site to see the full interview, as well as the many other articles, interviews and features they have. Books and Tales:


Do you plan everything or just let the story flow?

I usually begin writing on a story in some way before I do a detailed outline on how I would like it to progress. Also, sometimes, depending on the type of work it is: very deep, complex or quite personal to me, I will meditate and think about it for a long time. That can often take months or even years, but when I do begin to write it down, it all flows out at once.

Do your characters ever want to take over the story?

In my fiction work, they are allowed to, because it is their story after all. Sometimes what I plan and what I want to take place doesn’t work for what they need to express, so I let them change it, as it were.


After 10 Years in the Works: The Agony of Joy by Red Haircrow

aofjfont2 500750From the press release:  “Taking almost ten years to complete, The Agony of Joy, incorporates many of the author’s experiences and observations as a survivor of sexual abuse and violence.

But far from being the central theme, although psychological and behavioral after-effects continue for many, the novel focuses on the courage it takes, often in the face of opposition, misunderstanding and/or apathy to not allow anything or anyone to keep you imprisoned by that past: not even yourself.

One of the primary reasons the author returned to university, completing a degree in Psychology (graduation Spring 2013) was to help others in this and other regards, as well as continue personal healing.”

“Finding the courage to face the pain of the past in order to have a future.”

  • Title: The Agony of Joy
  • By: Red Haircrow
  • Published: February 17, 2013
  • ISBN: 9781301334520
  • Length: 350 pages
  • Genre: Literary Fiction, Contemporary Fiction, GLBTIIQ Interest
  • Price: $4.99 in e-book format
  • Available at Smashwords, OmniLit & soon at other online distributors
  • Book Trailer: The Agony of Joy

Blurb: For many survivors of child sex abuse, there is a lifelong battle for understanding and acceptance, not only from others, but also from themselves. From London to Berlin, to the frozen seas of far east Russia, this is an unforgettable journey of rebirth, revelation and redemption as two men struggle to overcome their separate past agonies and allow themselves to experience friendship and love.

Description: “Former model turned actor Adrian Lee can barely list age range ’23-29′ on his resumé anymore nor stand his life of empty social events and appearances, meaningless roles and casual partners. When he meets Alexander Skizetsky by clever arrangement of his agent, the enigmatic yet infinitely attractive Russian kindles a little light of hope in his aching heart. Yet even the beginnings of a friendship and love beyond his wildest dreams cannot assuage a life spiraling out of control.

The long estrangement from his devout Irish Catholic parents and family and the dark secrets they all share combine to drive him to the brink of despair, though Alexander is determined to stay by his side. After locking away his own memories of betrayal and loss, the Russian had decided never to love again but something in Adrian spurs the noblest intentions in his formerly jaded heart. Returning in pilgrimage to his homeland, he brings Adrian along on a journey of rebirth, revelation and redemption.”

Editorial Pre-release Reviews:

“Your story does what good fiction should do.  It makes me think, makes me feel, allows me to visit different places, and connect deeply with the characters.  It explores real issues that people face….”

“I love descriptive stories that enable me to travel to different places without leaving the comfort of my easy chair. I love using all my senses while reading and getting so totally immersed in a story that the sound of the phone ringing makes me jump. And I love characters so deep that I think about them during the day and dream about them at night.”

“A love story, but not a romance, definitely a gothic feel and one of the most positive portrayals of bisexuality I’ve ever come across in fiction.”

Nancy Ferrer, Outlaw Reviews

“It is an incredible work! You have been able to channel your memories and experiences, create vivid real characters and make something so beautiful out of pain and struggle is the highest meaning of what I believe art is: transforming hurt and becoming healers.

I’ve never read anything like Agony of Joy. There has never been a story that deals with some of the personal issues you are presenting in such an open way. It is inspiring and liberating and needed.”

Ana Christina Caelen, Sound therapist, Musician and Composer

“A well-told story…I admire your tact, and am enthralled by these characters and the world they live in.”

M. Daniel Nickel, Entertainer and Author of The Dashing Mister R


About the Author

Both traditionally and independently published, Red Haircrow is an award-winning author of fiction and non-fiction, poet, private chef and former law enforcement officer of Native American (Chiricahua Apache/Cherokee) descent who lives in Berlin, Germany. They are also a Psychology major and operates the independent publishing label and writer cooperative Flying With Red Haircrow.

Red Haircrow has various poems, shorter works and articles published in magazines like Sword & Saga Press’ American Athenaeum, Sibling Rivalry Press’ Assaracus, Danse Macabre, and Indian Country Today.  A winner in Rainbow Awards 2012 for Best LGBT Biography/Memoir: “Silence Is Multi-Colored In My World.”

Among other things, Red Haircrow enjoys photography, traveling, learning languages and cultures, and is quite active in Native American affairs, life, traditions and history.

Website: Songs of the Universal Vagabond

Red Haircrow on Twitter

Facebook Fanpage: The Redhaired Crow

Goodreads Author’s Page

Amazon Author’s Page

Redhaired Crow’s YouTube Channel

GLBT Bookshelf Page: The Journey of Red Haircrow

Other Works


A Lieutenant’s Love

Convenience Store Romance

Night Shift

Katrdeshtr’s Redemption

The House of Doom, Dreams and Desire

The Coat: Secrets of a Hatcheck Boy

The Angel of Berlin

The Caravaggio and the Swan

We, The Dead


Songs of the Universal Vagabond

Silence Is Multi-Colored In My World

“Spring in Berlin” in Suburban Fool Magazine

Poetry in Assaracus, Sibling Rivalry Press’ Literary Journal

“Big Mama’s Pears” in American Athenaeum, Sword & Saga Press

Other Book Trailers:

The Angel of Berlin

Silence Is Multi-Colored In My World

For those interested, review copies are available upon request, and the author for interviews and other promotional projects. Red Haircrow can be contacted at theredhairedcrow@gmail.com.

2012 in Review at Redhaircrow.com

Considering its my birthday, and despite starting a 2nd week with the flu, I thought I’d share this site’s stats for my general post. A stat that stood out for me? I had visitors from 98 countries: thank you for taking the time to drop by.

No, I don’t have a great number of visitors compared to some, but my blog is about me, my thoughts, observations, etc. as well as the topics I choose to write about, which can certainly be subjective and which the average browser may not be interested in. I appreciate those who have taken the time to learn more about me as well as share their thoughts.

Year highlights 2012:

  • Published Enigma 2: Fighting The Man by Nephylim at Flying With Red Haircrow
  • Published Silence Is Multi-Colored In My World
  • Received Award Best LGBT Biography/Memoir for “Silence”
  • Published  Poetry in Assaracus Magazine by Sibling Rivalry Press
  • Published Contribution in “Varney the Vampire: A Literary Remix”
  • Signed Jeffrey Bolden, up-and-coming enthusiasm author, “All We Know Is Falling”

Songs of the Universal Vagabond has quite evolved from what it once was when I was first published by Dreamspinner and StarBooks Press and began it. A number of authors and readers came out to “see” me, but found I was far different than the average writer in those “genes” who may have been published with which they were familiar, for I kept my same name whatever venue or genre in which I write.  I also didn’t conform to a certain type in a variety of capacities, which caused some to direct negativity my way.

I have, however, been lucky that those who actually take the time to read my words without need to judge, without preconceived  notions or prejudices, and might actually ask a question and await an answer before judging have taken the time to comment here or other locations. I cannot tell you how complicated and disheartening it can be when you have individuals and groups you’ve never even heard of post messages to attack and deride you, yet with friends and new acquaintances, I was able to go over that though my health situation has been very problematic the last two years. This is only a part of the balance of my life, but even if it just online, I treat everyone the same, no one is lesser here to me just because they aren’t standing in front of me. I appreciate you.

Probably Native American topics will be the strongest for me, although the greater number of posts are about living in or being in Germany, which is where I am, yet being native….that goes with me, of course, and colors all I see and experience. That’s a good thing because it gives me greater tolerance, patience and willingness to listen. So…thank you all, each and every one of you, whether you clicked thru for negative or positive reasons: Songs of the Universal Vagabond is part of what I am. This is me, with all its complexities, subjects, themes, ideas and thoughts.

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The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2012 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

600 people reached the top of Mt. Everest in 2012. This blog got about 8,200 views in 2012. If every person who reached the top of Mt. Everest viewed this blog, it would have taken 14 years to get that many views.

Click here to see the complete report.